| Author | Message |
|---|---|
 n0b0dyt0y0u |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 00:10:52
I've started to go on the server a little more and see tons of people I knew since I joined (2016) and I suddenly wondered "what ever happened to my forums and shit?" so I went back and looked at old conversations and comments and realized wow, I honestly was a huge bitch at 10. This is partially to clear the air with some players who have had a bad experience or story with me back then and to prove to them I'm different. So, I want to come here and give you all a true apology for causing problems and overall being a very rude and annoying fetus.Let's start off with this. How I felt during the whole thing was honestly sad. I don't know why I felt sad I was literally 10 I had and still have my whole life ahead of me other than a pixeled game. I guess I just felt like I fit in, but I never saw that many people did not like how I behaved and wanted me gone. I reacted aggressively to these comments, using my age as an excuse for pity. I did not know how to accept criticism back then. Thankfully, ever since those times i'm finally entering 8th grade and moving in with my grandparents in Bulgaria. If there's anything I've taken from my mental health at that age is that I did not have a single clue what being sad really meant. Now, under no circumstances am I trying to make others pity me. I'm just stating how I felt as I grew up aside from the server I became depressed and anxious about many things going on in my life. I was bullied in 5th grade and I only had my family which I argued with and still somedays argue with all the time. That's when I truly realized what it meant to be sad or depressed. Not over a block game. Now as times have changed, I feel happy. I'm no where near confident about my looks after shaving my hair but I'm glad to say I'm in a way better place. That's enough rambling about myself, though. I'd like to give you a true apology for my actions, so here it is. I'm truly sorry for causing many problems, arguments, and having only the worst fetus temper-tantrums. I should have known better but at 10 I was a really selfish kid, and that backfired on me pretty hard. I've made many mistakes and honestly did not deserve this many second chances. So, I'd like to thank staff for I guess having empathy for me these past 2-3 years. But other than that, I realize what I've done in the past is very crazy and I was very disrespectful as a kid. It's been a very big roller coaster ride and I'm kind of honored in a way to know some of you still after all this time accept me into a place you are comfortable in where you can chill out and meet new people. I'm honored to be called anyone's friend or be included in fun events, activities, etc. Back then I used to believe that the staff was corrupt and targeted me, but after all this and the time and effort they put into handling me at my worst, I've realized that's just not true. They were willing to let me back into their home, giving me countless second chances. Still, to this day, I do not regret donating to this server. I hope you can all forgive me for all the trouble I caused you. I strive to become a better person each day. Thank you all so much for everything you've taught me. I'm grateful and I hope you all can accept me 2-3 years later. - brooke <3 |
 Luva |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 02:23:40
I'd like to say, I was not around when this was happening, but, I am impressed that you took the blame for your actions. I wish you all the best. |
 Helperforever |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 02:24:10
I was the same way a few years ago, a complete shit that thought everyone hated me. I matured, and see that is not the case. Glad to have you back Brook. -Ninon |
n0b0dyt0y0u |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 02:25:51
The thing that makes it the worst is how much people judge you on the outside but never know really what's on the inside. Keep your head high, you're great!Thank you both for the support, means the world! <3 |
Luva |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 02:52:55
I find it really mature that you did that. |
n0b0dyt0y0u |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 02:54:15
Well thank you :)I felt and still feel as if I owe everyone an apology and I do not regret it. |
 IAmSavannah |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 05:10:32
Welcome back BrookeI knew you back then and I'm sure if you've matured like you say you have then we'll get along just fine <3 |
n0b0dyt0y0u |
Date sent: 2019/06/09 05:52:57
<3 ^ |
 ThebrookeWalker |
Date sent: 2019/06/16 19:54:34
bump |
